This month, I find myself in the grip of something I have dreaded for 27 years. The “empty nest” is a scary place for me. I am filled with so many different emotions that sometimes it takes my breath away. I thank God that the love of my life, my sweet husband, will be by my side every step of the way.
The girls are 27 and 18 and are the absolute joy of my life. To be honest, there have been times that I have put them on the top of my priority list; even above God. He has been merciful and allowed me those moments. Lovingly, He then pulls me back to the balance of God first, then family. I am thankful for His grace. Many of you, as moms have been in the same place I am sure.
So now, here I am, having to face this new phase in my life. Selfishly, sometimes I wish we had not done quite as good a job teaching independence to our girls. However, proudly I can say I am completely confident they can stand on their own two feet.
I have watched our oldest blossom into the most amazing woman you will ever meet. God is using her position as the wife of a Youth and Children’s Minister to mold and change the lives of students and children in their small community. She also has her own identity as an amazing blogger at www.lovemilkandhoney.com, a business owner, and creative genius (mom speaking) at an adorable local boutique. Joys and trials have come her way and she has remained faithful and strong.
So now it is time for my baby girl to do the same. She is a beautiful young Christian woman, a dedicated friend, highly motivated and extremely independent. She knows what she believes and is not afraid to take a stand. She will be studying to be a nurse and will be amazing.
I have had over 8 years to prepare for this phase of life so you would think I would be ready. I am not. But I know God has a plan for her; a plan for good and not evil, to give her a future and a hope! I will embrace that truth and pray it over both of my children daily.
So, that’s me keeping it real for today. Truthfully, I don’t like this place in my life very much. But I wouldn’t trade if either. I am grabbing hold of my Jesus and claiming that He is enough!
I will post again on this subject as these next few weeks come and go.
If you are about to be an “empty nester” I would love to hear your thoughts. If you have already been through this fire, I would love to hear your advice and encouragement.
Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you says the Lord. Plans for good and not evil; to give you a future and a hope.”
Yes–my three wonderful girls!!Each time, I found myself sitting on their bed and crying. funny, how happy and sad has a way of happening at the same.
(secret)At times, I still do—I love you more–Mom